…to make sure those things that have been hovering on your to-do list for over 6 months ACTUALLY get accomplished and become crossed off the list! :) I am learning this……slowly, but surly! :)
As embarrassing as it is, I have had the quilt top to this quilt (Amy Butler’s Sexy Hexy pattern) done for maybe over a year now. I fell in love with the pattern, bought the fabric, quickly cut it out and even more quickly sewed the top together (it was quite an easy and quick sew I must say). And then I smile because it looked great! Well….there is sat, draped over the rocking chair in my sewing room for a LONG LONG LONG time. As we’ve been packing, purging and getting ready for baby Steffen to arrive (in a mere 6 weeks…BAH!…time is whizzing by) I made a GIANT to-do list of things I wanted to get accomplished before this little one arrives and steals all of my precious creative time away for a few months. And this project was one of them!
So, now…I can proudly watch some movies and work on my next project with this lovely and warm quilt cuddled in my lap! Doesn’t every home need about 10 of these throw quilts just to make life more colorful?!?!? :) I sure think so! :)
28 years ago my Mom and dad became parents. I don’t know how this happened (ok, well I do…..but you get the point). I’ve wondered many things about this day, especially over the last 6 months as we are preparing for our little one to come into the world. I never took the chance to ask her. Did your water break? We’re you scared? Did you use drugs (or did they even have any back then). When did you first feel the baby kick? Did you know I was a girl and how scary was labor? You see, I’m not the kind of person that ever brought up pregnancy with my Mom. I ALWAYS knew that I would be one someday, but I’ve never been sentimental about it. I never thought to ask her about how long they tried to conceive or how she told my dad they were expecting. We’re they excited or scared and how did her 9 months go!? Was it fun or did she have complications? We just never talked about it (and perhaps it was the fact that I was only 23, not thinking about kids and in denial of her death during her battle with cancer, but that’s a whole different story for another day).
Ive heard things from my aunties and I kinda sorta remember stories that maybe her or my Dad mentioned while I was growing up. Something about how she only pushed for a mere 16 minutes and my Dad only had a chance to pour a cup of coffee before then the nurse came out to explain that he was a Daddy to a little girl.
I just can’t stop my mind from wondering these things. Am I “carrying” the baby like she did? Will my labor be the same or will I have similar parenting styles? I can’t tell you how many times during this pregnancy I’ve wanted to call mom and ask her why I crave ice cream almost every night, is it “normal” that my ankles are gigantic and why does my butt feel like its grown just as big as my belly? Or how did you deal with your roller coaster emotions and did Dad handle you as well as Aaron is dealing with crazy old me sometimes!? It’s these things that, on this specific day, seem to matter far more to me than any other thing…and as we wait a mere 13 weeks until this baby comes I’m trying to wrap my mind around how similar or different we probably were/are during this time.
Through all the questions, wonders and worries, ultimately though, I look in the mirror, take a deep breath and know that it will all be ok. After all, I hear it all the time…we talk the same, write the same, probably eat the same and defiantly look the same! So, after all…..all it takes is a good look in the mirror to know that I am my mothers daughter! I looked up to her for so many reasons, from the way she parented to the fact that she was able to balance a family, her job and her creativity together. I know I can do it because she labored and came out with a healthy baby. I know I can do it because she was able to raise a confident, strong and creatively driven girl. And I know I can do it simply because she did. I wish like hell that when the time comes and we are rushing to the hospital that I could make that phone call to Mom and Dad and exclaim that “it’s time, it’s time” (here come the tears)….but I also know that I wouldn’t be the woman I am today without having endured what I have. Perseverance and strength follow me everywhere; despite the “fairness” in life there is joy and happiness and so much hope in every new day….and I can only imagine how much stronger I will believe that when we hold our baby for the first time. And because of who my Mom was to me, I know that “the” day will come and go and we will end up with a beautiful, amazing little baby that we are so excited to share with the world! :)
So happy birth day Mom. And happy birthday to me.
Oh–and it only seemed appropriate that last night I (finally) finished the sweater that I’ve been working on for our baby. It won’t fit for at least a year, but I’m still quite proud of it. For those who want to know, it’s the Duffle Coat pattern from Debbie bliss made out of Rowan true life organic cotton. I pretty much love it and can’t wait to see our little one waddling around with it on! :)
Last weekend I was in sunny Palm Springs surrounded my 20 fabulous ladies at the Heather Ross Sewing workshop (if you missed the post about it, check it out here!) My favorite part about workshops and meeting new creative people is the energy and inspiration I always have when I leave…I feel refreshed, renewed and I tend to have an extended vision as a creative person! :) It is quite rewarding knowing that I put time and energy into something that will have such a positive impact on my designs and my balance in life! :)
I have to give props to Annabel and Alessandra….a conversation that we had on Saturday by the pool is what sparked these new designs! :) You see, I am the kind of person that get’s bored easily so the idea came about to start making these plush cameras more elaborate and more custom! That night, I started sketching and raced through about 500 ideas that were spinning in my head and out popped these two lovely plushies when I came home! :) I’ve used vintage napkins (from a local antique store), wool felt and they are 100%, totally handmade and custom! :) I also got inspired by Anna Maria Horner while at the workshop and all of her recent hand-sewing…her embroidery and stitching is just GORGEOUS so I just had to include some of my own techniques on these little guys! :) I hope you LOVE them!
I will be selling these on Etsy! FULLY custom order-able, so the sky is the limit as to what colors, style, and embellishments! Contact me if you’d like more information! :)But for now, here are the first 2 of the MANY ideas that have come to fruition! The old-school Kodak Brownie and the ever-so-popular Holga!
(SO take THAT Nikon, with your brand new D800 announcement today…..people will be forgoing their pre-orders and coming to buy a new custom camera that will be WAY cuter! :) Ok..just kidding…..I may have my very own pre-order in for a new D800 myself! :)